des haigh blog

a summer full of rolling down green hills. she simply is the best.

yes, we saw some. a ton in fact including the youngest orca to date. and just so you know, they came up so close to our boat.

this is my family, the brother’s family to be exact. yes, those are their kids all of them (well, except for the one in the helmet, she’s mine!), from the 22 year old to the 1 year old. they are loud, they are funny and they would do anything for me and my family. and they are one of the few that understand and don’t  judge my s’more addiction nor my problem with nailpolish.

p.s. this is like my favorite family session, eva. so there.

i first want to thank everyone for the endless amount of love me and my family has been shown these past couple of weeks, there are no words that could express our gratitude. i also wanted to share who aaron was to us and what we have experience these past few days.

i met aaron about 5 years ago while working at a yoga studio we both practiced at. he was a beautiful caramel colored man with a sprinkle of freckles across his face, he was a brilliant light. i did everything in my power to be his friend and went out of my way so that he would find me attractive and cool. it worked, we had lunch and the rest is history.

almost 3 years ago he was diagnosed with stage 4 bladder cancer and it was terribly aggressive. we both knew that this is why we were called to be friends, we were to travel this long hard road together, there were lessons to be learned for the both of us. through the many ups and downs, the endless dr. visits, the late nite trips to the emergency room, the sobbing, the open heart talks, the radiation, the pain, the medications, the side effects of those the medications, the road trips, the many meals, the chemo, the laughter, the sorrow, the love, the numerous america’s next top model cycles,  the joy, through it all, aaron maintained a grace that will forever effect me.

he was more than a friend, family and soul mate seem to do our relationship more justice. aaron was a beautiful dancer, a yogi and a sun lover (like the rest of us). nature was his church and his spirit was able to connect there. he walked along the cancer journey continuously learning/answering what this was suppose to teach him and unraveling the knots from his past.  he succeeded.

this past weekend, we laid our beloved light to rest, on the reservation where he felt so connected and loved. there we were able to experience aaron’s love once again, we were there as a testament to his amazing life and to the spirit that touched us all and brought us all together.  for 24 hours we connected with family and friends that he held so dear and that helped him on his path to healing. he had lived a thousand lives, blessed people all over the world with his smile, warm laugh and mindful heart and i am proud he was a part of us. aaron was laid to rest among his ancestors, on his land, near his family.

although the journey with cancer maybe over, my journey is not. i am thankful to have had such a friend lead me on a path of deep questioning, some of the questions are still unclear but it will be my job to find out the answers and meanings for myself. my lessons still continue. i pray that his teachings will manifest in me and that i can share those gifts to those who cross my path. his spirit, i know, will be there to guide me here and there, he is doing things larger than i can comprehend, his capacity is endless. i can only hope that one day our souls will be together again.

in love and light.

because of him i am a greater being. because of him i know strength, courage and grace. because of his light i know love. because of his being my family will never be the same. he was my brother, a soul mate, the bestest friend a girl could ever wish for. he is uncle aaron. i know a greater love because of him.

xoxo to my beautiful brilliant diamond.